really super duper like <3
watch Glee!!! it's nice!! :D
Monday, January 24, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
Sorry, Blame It On Me
As life goes on, I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out and apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don't want to take responsibility for
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out and apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don't want to take responsibility for
Friday, January 14, 2011
ブルメリア～花唄～
この梦(ゆめ) が この梦(ゆめ) がいつか 叶(かな) う时(とき) には 仆(ぼく) の隣(となり) に
君(きみ) がいて そう 君(きみ) がいて そっと 微笑(ほほえ) みあえたらいいな
君(きみ) がいて そう 君(きみ) がいて そっと 微笑(ほほえ) みあえたらいいな
まるで それは 约束(やくそく) されたような一度(いちど) きりの风(かぜ) の中(なか) の出逢(であ) い
ひたすらにスローモーションな 青(あお) い空(そら)
あの日 君(きみ) に出会(であ) い 仆(ぼく) は下(した) を向(む) く数(かず) も随分(ずいぶん) と减(へ) り
もう 一人(ひとり) で 笑颜(えがお) を探(さが) そうと思(おも) わなくなった
手(て) を繋(つな) いだって心(こころ) が 距离(きょり) を取（と）ることもあるこの世界(せかい)
隣(となり) にいたって果(は) てしない远(とお) く感(かん) じることもあるこの世界(せかい) を
いとも たやすく 君(きみ) は涂(ぬ) り替(か) えた
この梦(ゆめ) が この梦(ゆめ) が いつか叶(かな) う时(とき) には仆(ぼく) の隣(となり) に
君(きみ) がいて そう 君(きみ) がいてそっと微笑(ほほえ) みあえたらいいな
君（きみ）の阳気(ようき) な鼻呗はなうた) が仆(ぼく) の日常(にちじょう) を明(あか) るく染(そ) める
この刹那(せつな) も 次々(つぎつぎ) と色（いろ）づく
思(おも) えば仆(ぼく) はいつも 何(なに) かを谁(だれ) かのせいにして生(い) きてきたよ
谁(だれ) かのため 何(なに) かしようとするのではなくて
満天(まんてん) の星空(ほしぞら) の下(した) で 语(かた) り合(あ) った事(こと) を思(おも) いだすよ
小(ちい) さいけど梦(ゆめ) があるって静(しず) かな空(そら) に誓(ちか )いを立(た) てるように
君(きみ) は 仆(ぼく) に 打(う) ち明(あ) けてくれた
その梦(ゆめ) が その梦(ゆめ) がいつか 叶(かな) う时(とき) には 君(きみ) の隣(となり) に
仆(ぼく) がいて そう 仆(ぼく) がいて そっと 微笑(ほほえ) みあえたらいいな
大好(だいす) きな歌(うた) をハミングしながら 窓辺(まどべ) に饰(かざ) った花瓶(かびん)に
丁宁(ていねい) に水(みず) をあげてる后(うし) ろ姿(すがた) を爱(いと) しく思(おも) いながら
仆(ぼく) は心(こころ) に 强(つよ) く誓(ちか) ったよ
その瞳(ひとみ) に 儚(はかな) げな未来(みらい) が 映(うつ) るときにも 仆(ぼく) がそばにいる
いつまでも そう いつまでも だから 大丈夫(だいじょうぶ) さ そして
この呗(うた) が この呗(うた) が いつか流行(りゅうこう) の影(かげ) にしおれていっても
かまわない
君(きみ) は変(か) わらず きっと花呗(はなうた) で聴(き) かせてくれる
君(きみ) がこの呗(うた) を 爱(あい) してくれる
Thursday, January 13, 2011
MARRIAGE (SHOULD READ THIS!)
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.
When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.
She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outsidethe door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.
On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.
Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.
Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.
I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.
Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.
At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.
That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....
The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!
If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.
If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Thursday, January 06, 2011
Orianthi - According To You
According to you I'm stupid, I'm useless
I can't do anything right
According to you I'm difficult, hard to please
Forever changing my mind
I'm a mess in a dress, can't show up on time
Even if it would save my life
According to you, according to you
But according to him I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite, I don't feel like stopping it
So baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you
According to you I'm boring, I'm moody
And you can't take me any place
According to you I suck at telling jokes
'Cause I always give it away
I'm the girl with the worst attention span
You're the boy who puts up with that
According to you, according to you
But according to him I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite, I don't feel like stopping it
So baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you
I need to feel appreciated
Like I'm not hated, oh no
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad, you're making me dizzy
But according to me you're stupid, you're useless
You can't do anything right
But according to him I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite, I don't feel like stopping it
Baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you, you
According to you, you
According to you I'm stupid, I'm useless
I can't do anything right
I can't do anything right
According to you I'm difficult, hard to please
Forever changing my mind
I'm a mess in a dress, can't show up on time
Even if it would save my life
According to you, according to you
But according to him I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite, I don't feel like stopping it
So baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you
According to you I'm boring, I'm moody
And you can't take me any place
According to you I suck at telling jokes
'Cause I always give it away
I'm the girl with the worst attention span
You're the boy who puts up with that
According to you, according to you
But according to him I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite, I don't feel like stopping it
So baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you
I need to feel appreciated
Like I'm not hated, oh no
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad, you're making me dizzy
But according to me you're stupid, you're useless
You can't do anything right
But according to him I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite, I don't feel like stopping it
Baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you, you
According to you, you
According to you I'm stupid, I'm useless
I can't do anything right
Monday, January 03, 2011
Santa
santa~ oh~ santa~
i'm still wondering who are you~~
Dear Santa,
I don't know who are you, but thanks for your concern... thanks for the 100 plus ( although i just saw it on my table )... I can't recognize the hand writing actually.... whoooo areeee youuuuu?????
I thought my housemate know who is the sender of the 100 plus... but i'm wrong...
How dare you just put it in front of my house??!! what if the 100 plus steal by other people?? lolx...
Not much people know that i'm sick... so i assume that you know it from my blog, that's why wrote this and hope you can see it and reply to me...
people know where i stay, but not all of them know which block and unit i stay... you know which unit i stay... and you state my fb name "Carolyn En"....
arghhhh.. geramnya aku tak tahu siapa ni...
Saturday, January 01, 2011
what my friendsss think about me... lolx
KaYan:
哈哈~~my dear fren~~ =)
你不笑得样子，有时真的很凶也带有一点串，
但跟你熟后，觉得这是你的优点，这样才能保护自己嘛~~
个子小，但声音超宏亮的，你很有自信，很独立，
能力也比别人高，我喜欢~~^^
希望你能在今年的到你想得幸福，要永远快快乐乐的！！
要跟我这个朋友保持联络，下次一起看一部不是sunk cost的戏~~呵呵 =p
你不笑得样子，有时真的很凶也带有一点串，
但跟你熟后，觉得这是你的优点，这样才能保护自己嘛~~
个子小，但声音超宏亮的，你很有自信，很独立，
能力也比别人高，我喜欢~~^^
希望你能在今年的到你想得幸福，要永远快快乐乐的！！
要跟我这个朋友保持联络，下次一起看一部不是sunk cost的戏~~呵呵 =p
Pui Yeng:
个子小小的
却很强
就像一条小辣椒
好欣赏你哦~~
却很强
就像一条小辣椒
好欣赏你哦~~
阿妖：
体格好像小孩子，哈哈
样子当然漂亮！！
有时会很严肃，很恐怖！
有时会很严肃，很恐怖！
很有leadership~
smelly petai:
You are SHORT & COOL
Last time behave lik a guy
Our voice reallllly very loud lor....lolx
Hahaz....Carrot Gal ^^
Last time behave lik a guy
Our voice reallllly very loud lor....lolx
Hahaz....Carrot Gal ^^
little blacky:
你是名副其实的女强人！！超厉害~~
但你一定会在未来是个很成功的一个人~~
出名了要记得我~~
但你一定会在未来是个很成功的一个人~~
出名了要记得我~~
isaac:
ntg nuch.. lovable person.. cute haha
and short.. even though older yet loook like my small mei mei..
wonder why?? Hmm... haha
and short.. even though older yet loook like my small mei mei..
wonder why?? Hmm... haha
goat:
u still seem like standard 6 student leh...
if i din c u on dat day...den now diff story edi...XD
if i din c u on dat day...den now diff story edi...XD
dear dear:
u are my dear dear.. hope i will be ur dear dear forever.. let me yi kao whenever i gt problem..haha... i like ur jian qiang and independent... like ur brave... hehe.. and 1 thing to declare, not i want emo de lo.. i cant control at all.. and keep everything inside is better for me.. coz it couldnt be said out... i will keep everything inside.. =) but i will smile always de ^^ keep in touch ya..
RZ:
哈哈~跟别人一样~给我第一个印象超凶的>< 我记得那时是我第一次在那里被brief~你坐我对面~我尝试对你笑~以示好感~可是你却睁大那凶凶的眼睛瞪住我>< 怕怕叻~~哈哈~不过其实你人很友善~凶也不是对我们~是对异性~~=P
你会帮回姐妹们一起去踩那些欺负我们的男生~哈哈~人小小只~有时穿着打扮很有女人味~可是大多数打扮都是中性很有性格的~而且坐姿挺粗鲁的~和我一样~~哈哈~你会毫不犹豫地把心事分享给朋
你会帮回姐妹们一起去踩那些欺负我们的男生~哈哈~人小小只~有
友们~因为你信任我们~呵呵~要当一辈子的朋友啦~~XD
Bing:
第一次看到你的时候。觉得你很凶。怕怕。>< 不过在meeting的时候。就只是听见你的声音,看不到人...haha~
不过认识久了。你人超nice的~~也很可爱啊!!!haha
好久没看到你了。想你哦....>///<
不过认识久了。你人超nice的~~也很可爱啊!!!haha
好久没看到你了。想你哦....>///<
毛毛:
actually i didnt know u very well ~ rarely talk with u ~ coz im shy to talk with the gal XD
u r the short girl with a face which is not consistent with her age n also look kind n friendly these is the first image i get from u ~
u r the short girl with a face which is not consistent with her age n also look kind n friendly these is the first image i get from u ~
神！！ ：
你是个很不一样的女生，第一次看到女生那么迷动漫.. 当我知道你有看漫画的时候我还真的有点吓到呢 XD 第一眼看你的时候觉得你很凶，过后慢慢觉得你是个很有个性的女生，有自己的主见~ 要多笑 ^^ 考试加油咯~
ah wei:
很娇小的女孩~拥有小女孩的外形可是却有大女人的感觉~哈哈~不好意思哦~没想到见面的第一次让你那么难忘~哈哈~考试加油~
see pei:
一个很可爱很可爱的女生~~有时又会很酷~~感觉你有很多秘密~~想挖出来~~哈哈~~姐妹~~加油哦 =)
mc:
u alwaz gv me a feel is~u're a SUPERWOMAN!!!u're a cute gal but u lik to act cool~haha~but u also very independent on everytin n can handle all the things well~tats wat i respect~hehe~but feel lik not very close wif u~hope can more close lik ji mui wif u ♥
Jack:
cool but funny... an intelligence girl.. n i happy cause we have the same favourite anime.. hahaha
yannie:
i know the best word to describe u, 有义气, u always protect the ppl beside u.. when i m together with u, i get the 安全感..xixi~ thx for being my fren, thx for helped me when i need u, and i jux wan to say, don so stress and sad in ur study, we study hard together yar^^ i will try my best to help u when u need me..and i appreciate our friendship~ hope our frenship can lasting forever..muacks ♥♥
Po:
1st tie i met u:v shared da same newspaper.i was tryin hard 2 talk much but failed.mayb im 2 afraid 2 talk tat time lor~u look so cute n small when i 1st saw u.><>
pok pok:
中一初次看到你的时候，你好像不太想和我说话。。（是我神经过敏吗？）
first impression:好娇小的女生
认识、了解你后：嗓子好大==
是个很热血的女生，敢做敢当，坚持自己的意见:)
偶尔会emo。。。别想太多啦，把事情看简单化吧～
加油：）
first impression:好娇小的女生
认识、了解你后：嗓子好大==
是个很热血的女生，敢做敢当，坚持自己的意见:)
偶尔会emo。。。别想太多啦，把事情看简单化吧～
加油：）
fatty:
我记得我们相遇的时候~真得很够里好笑~想不到我们会上同一间college~同一班~还一起住~你是一个很cool的女生~虽然你有face problem~不过我说真的~你真得越变越美了~~=）
Mickey:
you are friends of my besties in the college. a tiny girl which they say same like me but you are much more cute :) i think we meet for 1 or 2 times only. thanks for lending us your house to do for our videography final assignment. and your mum as well :P without your help, i think we will get trouble when finding location. hope we can meet again and stay healthy ♥
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