My country

Thanks to Facebook, every youngster get the chance to know more about politic.

Thanks to Facebook, we, Malaysia citizens get to know the dark side of the election.

Thanks to Facebook, we get to know the hidden histories which already been covered by the "current" government.

Thanks to Facebook, we get to see all the dirty tricks which plays by our "lovely" BN, on how they used the foreigner to vote for them, bribe them with money, just to win the election this time.

Thanks to Facebook, people reveals everything which we can't see from the media like newspaper, radio, and television. Our "lovely" government even playing "censor game" like China, censored everything which will drag them into illegal issues and all the bad things they did.

All the advertisements and news that published in the media cannot be trusted anymore.

Even the reporter of newspaper, DJ from few fm stations, voice actor/actress for advertisement, and many more artists can't hold the corruption of the current government anymore. They chose to stand and voice out for the citizen.Telling their fans, is time to UBAH, to get a better future of Malaysia.

Frankly speaking, I'm not really into politic issues few months back.

Yes, there are indeed a lot of posts about the 505 Malaysia election news posted on Facebook.

But that's too much, and I was busy fighting with my final previously so I didn't give a fck on what is actually going on and what is actually happen in my country, my home. 

And now, I regretted why the hell I didn't register earlier. I can't vote!!

I'm reading the news which posted on Facebook everyday, what BN DAP PKR PAS are actually doing before election.

As what I absorbed, all I can see is how dirty BN is, and how unite is our Malaysian in fighting back the fcking BN.

There's too much things I wanted to express for the election this time, but once I think about BN, I kinda pissed and fed up. Yes, I can't vote, but this is my country, everyone wish to live in a peace and a country which actually "rakyat didahulukan".

They pay for old citizen of Malaysian and also non-Malaysian to vote for them.

They even giving out free IC and extra incentives to foreigner, just to vote for them. By this point, did they even think about, there's still many elder citizen already waited for the IC to represent themselves as a Malaysian for more than 50 years??? How many years they've been wasted, but those Bangla can get the IC so easily and just within one day???? and some are first time land in Malaysia???

IT'S UNFAIR!! BN YOU SUCKS!! SO DIRTY!!

I'm blaming BN for acting so dirty, not blaming those Bangla. They just being used by BN, I still can differentiate what is right and what is wrong. NO bias.

Summore, they twisted and distorted all the truths and facts and spreading it everywhere and even published those nonsense in newspaper. DAFUQ??!!

Our country is sick... We need Change.

We need free education!!

We need highway with no toll!!

We don't need inflation!!

All we need is UBAH!!!

Really fcking wish the election this time can change the future of Malaysian... 

Even though it's just 5 years... 

Let's just wait for the result tonight...

Hope it won't disappoint me... I will emo or even cry if BN won...

*PRAYING HARD*

SO NO TO CIRRUPTION!!

SAY NO TO BN!!

SAY NO TO NAJIB!!

SAY YES TO DAP!!

SAY YES TO UBAH!!!

BRING US BRIGHTER AND BETTER FUTURE!!!

Messed

I shouldn't have anything to worry about.
I messed things, ruined things...
I'm so confuse. I don't even know what I'm typing at this moment.
My fingers are just like typing the words out without getting my permission.

Studies
My study life, it's all a mess.
I'm highly motivated not to attend the class.
I'm lazy. I missed and skipped a lot of classes.
Even my first final paper is held on this Saturday, but I still haven't start my revision yet.
Notes are all in front of me. But I just can't face them.
Every time I look at the notes, I see stress.
My overall coursework mark is low for almost all the subject in this semester.
 I see no hope for the final examination.
I can't deal with it if I fail my paper. I don't want to retake it for the coming semester.

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But whatever it is, I just can't give it up.
Already spent one year time here, I don't want to waste it just like that.
Calm myself, face the fact, back to reality.
Being upset can't solve the problem.
I still have to sit for the exam.
Pass or fail, it's my own responsibility.
I got to be responsible for what I'm dealing with currently.

So....
Carolyn, just be tough k.. =)

Her Boyfriend and Her.

Owh~

Accidentally saw my friend's facebook profile and realized that she FINALLY changed her relationship status~
We knew the existing of her boyfie since last year I think..
But this is the first time I get to see how her boyfie actually look like.
Her boyfie is not a Malaysian, and is so much mature than other guys (maybe because of his age).
And the point is, I like the way how she express her love towards her boyfriend, and how her boyfriend do the same towards her!

The first one:

Found his dairy and peeked inside while he's asleep. Page #Random
"It's not wrong to lavish the person you love with what they want, provided you find it reasonable.
I can't afford to flourish with gifts like others. I offer 100% of my love is that enough ? 
We re all fools when it comes to love."

The second one:

"Let's break!" 1 am. Still awake. Picking petals off a special tulip. I love him, I love him not. I've done things beyond heart breaking yet still loves me dearly. I told him and he acknowledge. "Let's break" yet he pretends not to hear and love me dearly. I love him. I love him not. 

It's so sweet isn't it??!!

They are in a Long Distance Relationship (I guess so).
My friend, she is a Stewardess,
and him, if I'm not mistaken, he always travel here and there,
always be at different country.
It's how amazing a relationship can be maintain for so long even they are always apart from each other.

Do you have a dream?

Have you ever dream of your future?
People often talks about how would they do in the future.
They have the prediction by themselves for their future.

Some people do really put in 200% of their effort in order to make their dreams come true whereas some just like the majority: talk cock. This kind of people usually dream big but They never really take initiative to make things work.

Well, I'm currently at the stage of which majority of the people stay at. Have a dream, But didn't even showing any sign of putting effort into it to make it works.

I want to be a Baker. I want to have my own bakery house. Tells the interior designer about my idea on how to decorate the shop and hoping they will make exactly the same as what I wanted.

But, what now? I'm an ordinary student who currently pursuing bachelor degree in Business Administration at a local university -- UTAR, which located at a so called rural village with zero entertainment place, Kampar. The things I'm doing now is totally not related to what I wish to be. How can a business girl be a better Baker in the future?!

Sigh...

At this moment, I just can convince myself that I must learn about how things works in the business field at first,  then after that I only able to proceed to my dream, to be a Baker. There's no disadvantage in it right?! The only way to convince myself to put more interest To the course I'm pursuing now so that I manage to graduate from it, get the Piece of certificate, do not disappoint my family, then I am free to do whatever I want after that. That's my current hope.

Will things happen as smooth as how we predict?
No one knows......

The only thing now ...... Have faith!!

佩服

昨天在部落格里唠唠叨叨了那么多，
emo 也 emo 了，
哭 也 哭了，
才发觉，
适时的 emo 还真有助身心健康啊！哈哈

昨天有些要写的但忘了写，
就今天补回吧！呵呵

对啦，
我的人就是这样。
面对挫折时，只会一昧的沮丧，再沮丧……
软弱不堪，脆弱无比。

所以在昨天胡乱 emo 了一通后，
突然想到：
以前在拉曼学院读书时，
来自柔佛州的同学，还有来自沙巴朋友们，
大家其实都好勇敢！
从柔佛州去吉隆坡，就好比从 Nilai 去金宝一样的路程。
来自沙巴的更不用说， 还要大老远乘飞机来呢！
想想当时他们孤身来此，但却还是过得开开心心~
没有过多的埋怨，独立自强……
说真的，很佩服他们。

还有还有……
我的中学同学。
读完 matrikulasi 后就被分到老远去了！
马六甲的、槟城的……
还有其他的我不知在哪啦 哈哈
除此之外，还有个姐妹，自个儿飞到Sarawak念书了！
超勇敢的~ 当然，当中肯定也有无助的时候，但她还是坚强的挺过来了~
现在还顺利 proceed to third year 了！

看见大家都那么勇敢、坚强、独立，
我也该打起精神，向他们学习！
要独立！要坚强！ =)

心。情。

家，可以大、可以小；能夠遮風避雨就好

家，可以吵、可以鬧；沒有恩怨情仇就好

家，可以哭、可以笑；一家和樂開心就好

家，可以窮、可以富；家人陪伴溫暖就好

家，可以遠、可以近；記得回家的路就好

家，可以老、可以舊；常回家陪爸媽就好♥

承认吧。

家是唯一一个，

无论你们之间怎么吵怎么闹，

或者你有多讨厌家庭成员之中的任何一个人；

但当你在工作上、学业上、感情上，

面对任何挫折、压力、问题 时，

家，是你所能想到，唯一的避风港。

家人，永远都是最关心你的。

（或许有些时候，她们的表达方法错了，但她们始终都是出于关心你）

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来到金宝后，

才发现，自己的适应能力不够强。

本身，也不够独立，坚强。

金宝拉曼大学，还真的与吉隆坡拉曼学院有很大的差别。

在拉曼学院，

你可以拥有固定的同班同学。

交通方便：巴士、的士、LRT

饮食方面也很方便（走下楼几步路就到）

跟班上的同学能相处融洽，

甚至能亲密得像家人一样。

参加急救学会，大家也一样，

能够一起弱智，一起度过很多喜怒哀乐。

也离家很靠近，可以每个星期都回到温暖的家。

功课不会太难，老师都不错，notes 也好。

就算一个不小心不及格，还能 re-sit, 不用 repeat.

但，

在金宝拉曼大学，

每有固定的同班同学。

进了每科的班级，你唯一认识的，

就只有你的 assignment group member.

但，认识不代表就会熟络。

在学校，通常都是 solo。

自己去学校，到了学校自己一个人，午餐一个人，休息一个人。

（孤独很符合我的个性？我曾经也这样认为。但，人总有孤单的时候。）

交通不方便：没有的士，巴士也只有学校巴士。代步工具是：脚踏车

饮食方面：距离我住的地方，有点远（骑脚踏车都嫌远了，所以不可能走路）

现在晚餐，我有我姐和她的朋友们相伴。

但下个学期他们全都去实习了，晚餐我得自己想办法。

回家也不方便，需要三小时的路程，票价也贵。

要去旧街厂搭火车，还得 call taxi 来载（如果没有朋友载的话）

功课难，老师差，notes 也烂。

万万不能 fail。fail 了，没有re-sit，只有 retake。

你必须重读整个科目（包括上课，做 assignment）

在这念书还真他玛的压力啊！！ ！！！！！！

只能怪我不够独立。

以为适应了。但还是忍不住，一个不小心就大哭了起来。

软弱。这个弱点必须要改。

我需要独立。我需要坚强。

但是，在这陌生的环境，

在学校 solo 惯了，渐渐恢复了多年前，脸上常带着的“冷漠的面具”

也没办法啦，谁叫这里的人都那么不友善？！

渐渐的，我也变得冷漠，不友善了。

以前在 kl 那很好动很 active 的我，

来到这里，很像变成 low battery 状态了~ lolx

唉……

想家了…………

妈，我想你了……

我好想回到我的避风港。

 

逃离这里的不愉快。

“没那么简单” 友情版

没那麼简单 就能找到 聊得来的朋友 
尤其是在 看过了那麼多的背叛 
总是不安 只好强悍 
谁谋杀了我的信任 
没那麼简单 就能去信 别的全不看 
变得实际 也许好也许坏各一半 
不爱孤单 一久也习惯 
不用担心谁 也不用被谁管 
感觉快乐就忙东忙西 
感觉累了就放空自己 
别人说的话 随便听一听 自己作决定 
不想拥有太多情绪 
一杯红酒配电影 
在周末晚上 关上了手机 舒服窝在沙发里 
相处没有那麼容易 每个人有他的脾气 
过了爱作梦的年纪 轰轰烈烈不如平静 
幸福没有那麼容易 才会特别让人著迷 
什麼都不懂的年纪 
曾经最掏心 所以最开心 曾经 
想念最伤心 但却最动心 的记忆